I'm physically exhausted, but mentally awake at this hour. I only slept for like 3 hours, I'm so sleepy, but I really don't know how am I gonna fall asleep with a heavy heart. I have no idea why did I do all these last night? What was I even thinking at the exact moment when I said that. I'm such a joke. I make a fool of myself the entire night. A fool to everyone else that actually know what the fuck I did. HA. HA. HA. I forget that, nowadays guys only want a girl just cos she's pretty. Love has become superficial. Where has all the true love go to? When a guy just fall in love with a nice girl that he feels comfortable with, that he can talks to easily and that he wants to dote and to love her for who she is. It is never like that anymore. The society doesn't give you a chance to see if you're beautiful on the inside if you aren't on the outside. No one give you a chance to prove yourself. No one.
And till now, I don't know where did I even get that courage to actually says something like that. But oh well, I get it. I know where I stand. I don't deserve to be happy. I just deserve to be left alone, forever like this. This time, I'm leaving. I'm not gonna let the history repeats itself. I'm not gonna fight for anyone or anything anymore,bcos I'm too afraid to go through another heartbreak. And silly me, I let you slip between the cracks of walls I'd built up. Walls that had taken countless days of heartache to piece together. I'm all alone now, picking up all the pieces and putting them together again.
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