If happy ever after did exist I would still be holding you like this,

Alright, I'm finally back to update. Celebrated my 20th birthday with the sweetest girlfriends, with pretty cupcakes& balloons. And yes, a super pretty customized iphone cover. I always expect my birthday to be damn screwed up, but the girls never fail to surprise me every year. Much appreciated. (: Love you bbgs. 

As usual, I'm a workaholic. But at least, it keep thoughts away. I been thinking too much nowadays, or wait. I always thinking too much. They say love's a gamble, and I tend to blindly rush into things, but that's only cos I was hoping that I could feel happy again. That priceless genuine-love-happy feeling. But I know, I deserve nothing and nobody because I'm never good enough. Never. 

Night life almost every week with the girls. And my body decided to screw things up. Coughing like a bitch for more than a week, and even medicine is not working on me.Power chain and rubber bands for braces is the worst combo ever. That's how fuck up things are. Gawd. I just need to escape. Escape from reality for a while. Just a while will do. Give me a one way ticket to anywhere.