Heart on my sleeve,

I have so many things going through my head, and I have no idea how am I gonna put them down in words. Once again, I  feel like I'm never good enough, never good enough for anything or anybody. What if my best is not good enough? I'm just scared, I have no idea what all these is gonna lead me to in the end? What if it doesn't lead me anywhere? If it doesn't lead me anywhere, can I just let go now. I don't want to go through everything, and end up realizing that I'm left with nothing but just memories. I didn't take a step, not because I didn't want to. I told myself, I don't deserve it. I know if I start talking to you, I'm obviously gonna get attached. That's why I always tell myself to keep a distance. Keep a distance away from you. But I didn't expect you, to take the first step. Like what I said, I'm not gonna fight for anyone or anything anymore,bcos I'm too afraid to go through another heartbreak. 

But it is all too late, I get attached too fast. And now I'm stuck. 

I have this very strong feeling that you are different, and I let my walls down for you.

 And this time, I willing to lay my heart on the line just for you.