It's kinda fucked up isn't it? How all of a sudden, someone just wakes up and decides to never talk to you again. No reason. No explanation. No words said. What hurts the most is how they made it look so easy. You let them in, and they just destroy you. I have so many questions on my mind, I need answers to all of it. Even if the answers gonna hurt, I don't care. I need to know why did you even started it, why did you even bother? And after so much, you just all a sudden decide to end things like this.
Do you know how much I wish that we didn't even take the chance to get to know each other better? How I wish we are just hi-bye friends? I'm okay with it, really. Now we don't even talk at all, oh wait. I don't even exist in the first place. I'm invisible.
Those who don't intend to stay, shouldn't even take the initiative to come in my life. Just go away. I can't take it anymore. I'm not fine, not at all. All the impromptu decisions that night, make me realized that I lose myself. I need to stop being a burden to everyone. I'm sorry, Clara. I still remember how many times she asked me over and over again whether I'm okay. I can't just tell myself to let go, it is not easy. Same shit, different boy. When will I ever fucking learn, so I won't have to go through the same shit again and again. I'm so fucking tired. It had been three days, I need to stop tearing over it. Goodnight everyone, Going to sleep with a heavy heart tonight.
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