"I spend a lot of time thinking about what could be. Like if everything worked out and if all my wishes came true. I can picture myself saying all the things I can't and doing all the things I've always wanted to do. I think about how different things could be"
Yes, I'm starting to miss you again. I miss how you use to make my day with just texts. Random texts. Those texts that never fail to put a smile on my face. And before I knew it, I fell. I fell too fast, and now I'm left with nothing just those silly texts from you. Nights like this, I will still go back and read the conversation over and over again. I still remember how silly I was, trying my best to stay up before my flight just to reply your texts. I never regret anything. Never regret meeting you, knowing you. Never once.
But oh well, I take things too seriously, I let you in too easily. Is okay, you didn't make any promises. You are free to leave, I will always remember those who leave. Happiness don't last, there is no forever. I'm gonna build a wall around my heart, higher than it used to be. But I'm still hoping things will work out one day, maybe not now. But one day. I still have this part of me believing that you're different from the rest. I have no idea why, just that same old strong feeling. Does having that little faith will ever make a different to how things are now? I can't just go on like that. But I just can't help it. I need someone to numb all these feelings and thoughts. All I can do now, is just be glad that our paths crossed and somehow you make me happy even for a while.
I know, I need to learn how to count my blessings. I know I will be happier if I count my blessings. I will be happier if I didn't care so much, but I can't do it. I get affected easily by the slightest matter. I need to be grateful for always having my favorite girls, Rachael, Melissa and Vicky. And my bffs, Joseleen, Rongrong and Esther. Even though we somehow drifted, but I know they are always a call or a text away. And yes, Clara, Layping, Moyra and Zz too.
I miss you, till we meet again happy pill (':
Going through my photos, and guess what I found...
My favorite IJ girls,
But oh well, I take things too seriously, I let you in too easily. Is okay, you didn't make any promises. You are free to leave, I will always remember those who leave. Happiness don't last, there is no forever. I'm gonna build a wall around my heart, higher than it used to be. But I'm still hoping things will work out one day, maybe not now. But one day. I still have this part of me believing that you're different from the rest. I have no idea why, just that same old strong feeling. Does having that little faith will ever make a different to how things are now? I can't just go on like that. But I just can't help it. I need someone to numb all these feelings and thoughts. All I can do now, is just be glad that our paths crossed and somehow you make me happy even for a while.
I know, I need to learn how to count my blessings. I know I will be happier if I count my blessings. I will be happier if I didn't care so much, but I can't do it. I get affected easily by the slightest matter. I need to be grateful for always having my favorite girls, Rachael, Melissa and Vicky. And my bffs, Joseleen, Rongrong and Esther. Even though we somehow drifted, but I know they are always a call or a text away. And yes, Clara, Layping, Moyra and Zz too.
I miss you, till we meet again happy pill (':
Going through my photos, and guess what I found...
My favorite IJ girls,
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