Hardest battle,

I try my best to not let certain things get to me, but you know sometimes, no matter how you try, there's always that one thing that you can't forget because it isn't that easy. 

At my worse state last night, I thought of you. I hate how everything and how others never failed to remind me of you. How anyone can just mention your name in front of me at my weakest point of time, it is as good as stabbing me over and over again in my heart. It was never this, never. It had been a while since someone can make such an impact in my life. Thinking back, it had been four months. Four freaking months. I been like this for four months. And every night I find myself thinking about how much I wish I could go back to 31st Of May and not reply you. What if I didn't bother to reply you? Will it makes a difference to how things are now? 

I'm sorry for being such a burden last night. I'm sorry Clara, I always disappoint you with my nonsense, thank you for taking care of me last night. And to Melissa, I'm sorry Momo for all the crazy things I did last night. I promise all these won't happen again. I officially taking a long break from nightlife, until I get rid of this emotional burden. All these won't stop until I get rid of this emotional burden. I need painkillers. A painkiller to fix my broken heart, and to stop all these unwanted pain.