The day we met frozen I held my breath right from the start I knew it I found a home for my heart beats fast

I'm feeling so lazy again. I'm just gonna summarize what happened for the past few days,

• Gabriel is finally back from Wallaby after two long months! WELCOME BACK (:
• Stay over at Rachael's crib for the first time, and accompany her to fetch Gabriel at the airport.
• Watched Breaking Dawn-Part Two, and omg is damn AWESOMEEEE! We both tried to get ourselves into the whole twilight thing by dressing up in  jeans,tanktop and a outerwear to look like Bella. (Don't judge please!)
• Last minute partying with Rachael and co! I can't remember everything that happen that night. My memory of that night was in bits and pieces. Thank god, cousin was clubbing that night too. And he brought me for my favorite supper @Spize, took care of me and send me home. I felt like a little girl all over again. (':
• I'm officially a lightbulb now. I've been hanging out after work with Rachael&Gabriel too much. Soon I will be as bright as a sun. SIGH.
• Went to Frenzie bar the other night, with Rachael, Gabriel and his friends. Rachael&I was in our world laughing away. Mom came and fetch me home after that.

I guess that is pretty much everything, ever since I left this place covered with dust for the past six days. I was this close to let the history repeat itself the other night, I'm losing myself all over again. It is so hard, it is like a constant battle. A never ending war. Heart over matter. It just remind me that I'm not capable of taking care of myself, taking care of that heart. I will still choose to put you before anyone else, even if it means hurting myself. I'm just glad, very glad that we are on talking terms now. I know it is nothing to you but trust me it is everything to me. I just hate the distance, hate the changes. I hate the feeling of being strangers again. At least now we are still friends I suppose?