Rant.

It still affects me once in a while, whenever I scroll through Instagram or Twitter. I'm not the kind of person that will just forget everything overnight or something. It take quite a while for me get over it, or maybe I never will? I will just put it aside, until one day when something or someone remind me of all of you. I had memories with all of you, every single one of you had a impact on me. We had our happy and sad times together. You all are always there for me through my bad days and my pillar of support. How is that possible for me to forget everything just like that? I understand that I'm different from all of you, I'm not studying in a poly, I don't get to see you all often as you three get to meet each other. 

But you know what, I made an effort. I tried my best to meet you all, whenever I can. But the reply I get from you all is that you all are busy with school and we can only meet once in a few months. Okay. I'm fine with it. But you know what, you all can meet each other, but you all don't bother to ask me along. Uhhhh. So much for only can meet once in  a few months. I still bother to go all the way down to NYP  just to have a quick lunch with you all, since you all claim that you got no time to meet and we can only meet during your lunch break. And you know what? You all don't appreciate at all. Even meeting for a meal at the nearest mall, it is as good as I'm eating alone. Since the whole entire conversation over the meal is all about school. And I know no shit about your school life or your studies to even join in the conversation. I'm not saying that you all cannot talk about  your own school stuffs, but hello? I'm not invisible you know. I have feelings too. I'm there for a reason. I meet you all to update about each other life other than school.

I complain about how unhappy or how angry I get with the girls, but you know what. At least they don't leave just like that. We will always settle everything with each other even if we got to tell each other straight in the face, how fucked up we are. They are always there for me no matter what. They don't just leave me without any explanation like you all did. I tried to forget you all, but you know what. I had too much memories to do that. I can't. I just put it aside, and hoping one day I will get over it. 

Lastly, thank you for just leaving the whatsapp group. The whatsapp group is created for a purpose, for us to update on our life and plan meet up together. It just shows how much you all actually cared by leaving the group. At the end of the day, it is not about how long we know each other, but is how fucked up all of you are by leaving me. I will always remember this. Mark my words.