Rant Part Two: "Forget the ones that forget you."

So, I decided to talk about this topic again.

Firstly, You expect me know why you all distant from me when you all don't even say a word? So I am suppose to read your minds? And if I known would I asked you? You all can say I didn't care, but you know what. It is you all that didn't care at all, not me. Go read up on HERE and HERE before you all actually think that I don't care about you guys. 

And you all think that I treat you all like backup plan, doesn't it seems to be the other way around. You guys have school I understand, so I have to wait for you guys to be free so that I could go hang out? So if you all are not free for me, I'm suppose to lock myself at home? I still bother to keep asking you all time and time again when you guys will be free to meet, but I still get the same replies and see pictures of you guys hanging out. And why I always meet up with Rachael they all. Cause they make the effort to, you think they really very free every damn day? Rachael also goes to school,Melissa and Vic goes to work. They still make the effort to meet up even if it means supper. I don't see how impromtu meet ups yet still includes me. Yet you all claim that your meet up is always impromptu. K can. 

You all claim that my life is always good. Yes, look at how good my life is HERE How upset I was the other time, this shows how good my life is to you all. Oh well, this shows how much you all actually cared about me? I had been going through shit for the past few months. And you know what, they had always been there for me, not you all. I don't expect you all to be there for me, knowing that you all are busy with school. And my life is good with them, because they are honest to my face. If they are unhappy with me or about me they'd say it to my face. Like this: HERE

But you guys? Just distant yourself away, and be unhappy with me behind my back?
And don't you all dare to claim that my life is good. You don't know what I go through, so don't fucking judge me. 

My birthday celebration? DARE YOU ALL TO HAVE THE AUDACITY to say that I didn't tell you guys that I book a hotel room for the celebration. Yes, it is not confirmed but  you all are the one that tell me, that you all couldn't make it. So if you all couldn't make it, am I suppose to not celebrate my birthday? You know what, you all are the first to know about it before Rachael and co. And you guys told me you all couldn't make it to celebrate me on the actual day. I remembered clearly that Joseleen told me that her sister is coming back from overseas and they gonna have family dinner at night. SO MUCH FOR NOT INVITING YOU GUYS K. That's why I celebrated on the 27th at Helipad with you all, cos I wanted you guys to be part of my birthday too. But looks like it got taken for granted. 

And my Taiwan trip, really you're gonna start that? I brought each of you guys what was practical for you all. You want the fake eyelashes I brought for them? Not like you guys wear fake eyelashes? And tank tops you guys don't wear that? So the last time I brought you all so many stuffs from Japan, and nothing for Rachael and co and they must go home and cry lah? Then like my birthday you all say so much for passing my present some other time and then? Vanish into thin air lah?

And yes, apparently I must be able to read minds to know that you all still actually cared about me and my exams when no one actually bothered to tell me or ask me anything, even after saying you still still bother about my exam grades. Good to know you think of me that way thinking my life is good enough therefore not needing you all. Yupp, So taking pictures and letting me see them wouldn't make me feel left out. If you all even realize that, Rachael they all are all in pairs except me. But they never make me feel left out like you all did. 

" The only people you need in your life are the ones that prove to you they need you in theirs. "And if they need you in theirs, they will make an effort no matter what. Not by saying or thinking, but actions. It is not easy to "forget the ones that forget you". But sometimes, you don't have a choice.