Feelings,

It just get me thinking for the whole day. No matter how much you love that other half, you must always remember what you deserve and protect yourself even if it means giving up. I never expect anyone to be so strong minded. 

It is not easy. But she did it knowing she don't deserve all these bullshit. It is like you choose to lose everything because you know you deserve more than this. But what if it is just a obstacle and they choose to give up? Maybe if they fight harder to fix things they might make it thru this time? And what if, just what if you don't meet someone like him anymore? It is so sad how people just give up on each other. Maybe they did tried to fix things. Then again what if they didn't. It takes so much for two person to be together, so much. But as time goes by, I guess people just gradually forget about how much they go thru just to be together. Or maybe they just ended up together because they both like each other. I think if one have go through a lot, just to be together with the one they love. They will actually appreciate the other half more than others? Becos they learn things the hard way, and they don't get it like how others do. It is like how pretty girls can get whatever they want, bcos they are pretty? They don't really have to fight for anything things just come easy to them. Urgh! Fuck my insecurities.

It is scary. I'm losing hope, that someone will ever fight for me as much as I will do for them. I need to stop being so naive. Wake up J, wake up.